If I died today, I will die with love in my heart;the love of a man. In this life time I surely count myself lucky to have had such a beautiful family that to me is the true definition of love. I have grown up with one of the greatest siblings and cousins that to me I count them all my greatest blessing on this earth but above it all, I found love of a man.
I am super sentimental and because of that I just naturally am helpless romantic. My story to finding love isn’t that great but when I found it, it felt right because I also found another love, self love. The first yime I thought I had found love was nothing but the fact that I was in love with the idea of loving that man. I totally neglected myself and focused all my energy to him expressing my whole self to him and hoping everyday that he would notice just how much I felt for him and reciprocate it back. At that time I was okay with the fact that I had love, I loved someone, until I met someone that loved me.
I’m sorry to say this but if I am asked to choose between loving someone and being loved, I will choose being loved without second guessing. I say this because I have been on both sides of the coin and the latter is just amazing.
I met this guy at a friend’s party hehe. We were all drunk and trying to have a good time exept for him who was sobber as the day. Just by looking at him, I fell in love. It was love at first sight. I fell in love with his height(absurd I know), then his hair was just in someway so neat and made him look attractive in a way I can not explain. Then his spirit was just so free and for a moment, I envied this guy. He looked like he had no problems at all in his life and he was living his best. Well, I fell in love that night.
Sad thing is that he was those type of guys you fall for but love them from a distance because they can never be with you. Some of you can relate to this. I loved him from a distance. Until we met again in a club…. I know what you thinking hahaha….and I was so high and courageous I do not know where from. We had sat on the same table because we had mutual friends and so we decided to have fun all together. Believe you me, I stood up from my chair and walked to him, he had sat opposite me and I grabbed him by the collar and profffesed my love to him. I told him he was a Coward to miss a girl like me because of some stupid status the society created blah blah. Trust me by the end of all the drama, I won over the guy. He was mine!
Fast forward, we linked up and decided to give it a try and this year May 5th 2020 will be our third anniversary 🎉🎉. He is the best thing life has blessed me with. In these three years, he has seen the best and the worst of me and held me through it all. It has not been easy but my fairy tale came true, I found the other half that completes me. I now look forward to settling and traveling the world together. The feeling he has given me is not comparable or replaceable. What makes it right to love him is the fact that he made sure before I loved him, I learnt to love myself first which is the most amazing thing anyone has ever made me.